Speaking in a preview for the next episode of her ‘Red Table Talk’, she said: “That was a huge loss in my life, because he was one of those people that I expected to be here. My upset is more anger. You know what I’m saying? Because I feel that he left me. And I know that’s not true, and it’s a very selfish way to think about it, but I really did believe that he was going to be here for the long run.”
Meanwhile, the 46-year-old actress – who has Jaden, 19, and Willow, 17, with her husband Will Smith – previously admitted Tupac’s death made her “afraid of fame”.
She explained: “When I think about what I had going on when I was younger, I do think I was really afraid of fame. I really worked hard to keep everything small. I saw how Tupac got devoured by having fame too fast. I watched what happened to him and, in all honesty, I think it scared me. For a long period of time, I really tried to put a cap on fame. I’ll never forget when Michael Mann called me for ‘Ali’, I was like, I have no interest in being in your movie. I look back on things like that in my youth and think, ‘What a freakin’ idiot you were!’ But I realise now I was really scared … I was afraid of the success. Look, I can deal with the failures. Trust me. Falling on my ass and getting up, I’m good at that one. It’s the other stuff.”